A Girl in My Life

My throat dries up and I can no longer stammer out any words, my eyes are glazed over at that beautiful woman who inhabits my dreams and who is now right in front of me. She is short, very clear skin, looks like porcelain, golden hair, honey brown eyes, a snub nose and a mouth in the shape of a heart, made for my kisses. The last thought makes me blush.

I feel Mr. Jones poking me lightly, and I try to get back to normal. With a lot of difficulty I finish my welcome speech and dismiss everyone shaking sympathetically their hands, I’m intrigued with that girl and walk towards her before she mix with the crowd.

– Hello – I speak stopping in front of her and she stares at me with frightened and shy eyes.

– Hello, Mr. Stewart – a girl who was next to her greets me and I nod my head, now realizing her presence.

I turn my eyes to the girl of my dreams, so beautiful; she deserves a compliment that draws a beautiful smile from her little heart, my heart beats fast and I feel an unknown feeling for this girl, I cannot identify it, I only know that I need to have her near, that I need to protect her and make her happy? Where does this come from? – I ask myself without taking my eyes off her.

– So this is where you were? And I’ve been looking for you all my life – I say, hoping to draw a smile from her.

The girl doesn’t react with a smile on the contrary, she is surprised and stares at me with her eyes full of tears:

– I didn’t know that a star worked in my company – I give a small smile, I hope it works now.

– You must be confusing me Mr Stewart, I’m not famous – her eyes on me with sadness and disappointment.

– We’d better introduce ourselves before night falls and I have to run to light up the sky.

But it doesn’t have the effect that I expected, quite the contrary, it seems that I have offended her in some way, I have hurt her. She no longer looks at me, she just says goodbye to her friend and hurries past me walking away leaving me sad and intrigued, I notice that she walks a little different from the others, why? I look at the girl beside me in search of answers and she shrugged without knowing what to do.

– Elisa is shy, we work in the same department for about a year and she has not made any friends, I try to approach sometimes but it is difficult. I am going after her – the girl I don’t know the name of tries to pass by me but she holds my arm gently.

– Let me go, I’ll apologize – I hurry towards the girl before I lose sight of her.

I practically run after her, how can such a small woman walk so fast, I reach her and hold her arm, I stop in front of her after one quick movement and my smile disappears when I see her tears.

– I’m sorry – I’m not sure for what, but I’m sorry nonetheless. I put my hands in my pockets for fear of touching her face and scaring her. I feel my heart beating hard in my chest, she lowers her head and with the back of her hand wipes her tear stained eyes, I can’t resist, I take my hand to her chin and raise it so that our eyes meet. Her eyes show doussure, they are so delicate and so forets at the same time, even humid at that moment, I take a deep breath and then start to speak:

– May I introduce myself? – I ask as calmly as possible.

– You are not the owner of my tears – he warns, wiping his face with the back of his hands – But I already know who you are.

– Good – I sigh relieved – I want to be the owner of your smiles, never of your tears,” I see his eyes widen in surprise at my words.

– Don’t you stop? – he asks, his eyes filling up again with tears.

– Why does she cry so much? – I think, seeing her moist eyes once again.

– Not until she gives me a smile – I need a smile from her like I need air to live.

– You’re my boss, it’s unethical what you’re doing – she sniffles – It’s not nice to joke with people like that, I may be your employee but I’m not just anyone, you have no right to joke with me just because I’m not normal like the others – my heart breaks at the uncontrollable tears she sheds and the way she.

– What does she mean by not being normal like the others? She’s perfect! – I think, not liking her words one bit.

It gives me a little pity, she doesn’t think she’s capable of attracting someone, this beautiful girl in front of me, thinks that for someone to be interested in her there must be some obscure reason.

– Anael Stewart – I say smiling and hold out my hand to her that gets indecisive and scared.

– I know who you are sir – she rolls her eyes – My name is Elisa – she just says, no last name and I like it, for some reason I just like it. She has no smile, no more than a weak handshake that gives me an electric discharge, shivering every hair on my body, I realize that the same happened to her that soon tries to find something to focus her gaze, completely embarrassed in my company.Content bel0ngs to Nôvel(D)r/a/ma.Org.

– Elisa – I pronounce her name to see how it sounds, I still block her passage and get curious to know if she will simply run away, I can’t lose this opportunity, I need to know more about this woman that before only inhabited my dreams.

– Did you forgive me? – I ask looking into her eyes.

– For what? – It’s a challenge, not a question.

– That’s the point, I don’t know why.

– I have to go – she sighs trying to get past me.

– Go where?

– Home sir, today is my day off, I only came because of the presentation of the new CEO – she explains.

– Have an ice cream with me? – I invite her.

– That’s not wise sir – she tries to get past me.

– First stop calling me sir and second it’s just an ice cream I won’t bite – “only if you ask”, I turn red at this thought.

“I know what I’m doing is not right, today is my first day at the company, however I can’t hold this impulse that leads me to her” – I think looking at her golden andulated strands.

– It will be dark soon, you’ll have to leave me to light up the sky, star – I play one more line in the hope that she finally gives me a smile, which once again doesn’t happen.

With a grimace she eventually gives in and we leave the company over several curious looks and I don’t care, the only thing that matters to me is to know this girl and take her for myself, I feel an enormous need to take care of her. Beside me she looks so tense.

We enter an ice-cream parlor in front of the company building and sit down at a table for two near the huge glass windows. I pull out a chair for Elisa and she looks at me astonished and surprised, I find it funny in her wide eyes, she sits down half-aggressively, she looks like she is going to run away at any moment. I sit down beside her, her long golden hair has a soft and sweet perfume, she runs her fingers through her hair in order to tidy it and the perfume spreads.

– I just want a scoop in chocolate flavour – Elisa says shifty – I can’t stay long.

I ask for a strawberry ice cream and her chocolate one, it doesn’t take long and our orders arrive, she is mute, but I feel her presence the whole time.

– What are you doing? – I decide to break that silence.

– I draw furniture – she almost smiles.

– I hope to be there the day she smiles, it must be a historical event – I can’t resist talking – So you are one of the responsible for all the success of the company, what kind of furniture do you like to design the most?

– I have a passion for period furniture, I am thinking of designing forties style furniture to present as a project for my superio.

– Old furniture, go to the house, the mansion has the oldest furniture in New York – I speak and remember Mr. John and how much he seemed to like that house, she wants to say yes but I feel her anguish – It’s no big deal Elisa, you are beautiful but I am strong, I promise to resist your charm.

– I would like to – she ignores my compliment and accepts the invitation with much effort, I touch her hair, use the tip of my finger to move a lock of hair away from her face – They are not very pretty – she says moving the strands away from my reach.

– Scented and beautiful just like their owner – we are so close that her heart-shaped mouth invites me closer but I fight bravely to resist.

– I need to leave – she says wanting to get away.

– Do you want a ride? – I offer.

– I call a taxi, thanks for the water mister. – I make a face – Anael – I approve and smile, I liked my name being pronounced by her voice so soft and sweet.

– Not that sweet Elisa – I touch her hand – I really liked to meet you, I hope we have another opportunity to have moments like this – I speak looking into her eyes – I wait for your visit – I take a pen from my jacket pocket and write my personal number on the napkin and give it to her.

Then she takes it and leaves. After paying the bill, I go back to the company with a smile from ear to ear and follow the schedule. I get a kick from Mr. Jones for leaving work behind, I keep quiet because nothing takes my smile away today.

I am inside of all the functioning of the company and strangely I understand everything very fast, maybe I have already worked with this and I don’t know because of the memory loss.

I attend several meetings with the board, analyze the charts and the entire operation of the sectors, I know some employees who will work directly with me and when night falls I leave my room and say goodbye to everyone. I look at the wristwatch and it marks seven o’clock on the dot, I walk quickly to the parking lot and unlock the car, I get in and start, going straight to my house.

The goddess of my dreams now has a name, I will fight to conquer her and have that woman for me, I feel a strong connection with her, as if we already knew each other from other lives. “Ah sweet Elisa, you will still be mine.” – I pray that she accepts me and that my interest is reciprocated.