TWENTY-NINE
Lauren kept crying inside our room. We got home after going to Keisha’s. I accompanied her inside because I wanted to be sure of the result. And thank God it’s negative. She was really delayed but not pregnant.
I admit that I freaked out when she told me that she was delayed. And honestly, I can’t really accept if she gets pregnant. Maybe it will be the start of our fight or maybe I look at her differently. Every day will be a survival day for me.
I hate seeing her cry. I wanted to hug her and approach her but I stopped myself. I don’t want her to think that what happened to me is ok right away and that maybe she forget to take pills again. But honestly, I’m also annoyed to see her cry.
She also stopped for a few moments and came to me. I am sitting here on the terrace while looking outside. I calmed myself down because I still hadn’t lost my nervousness earlier.
“Hubby.” I didn’t answer. I just want to let her know that I am mad. And yes I am. I’m really angry because of what she did. “I’m sorry. It won’t happen again.”
“Yes, never will gonna happen to us, anymore. Because from now on I will not claim you. I won’t touch you anymore.” I didn’t hear anything from her so I looked at her.
“Hubby,” she called me sadly. “I will fix the contraceptive. I will make sure I will not forget this time. ”
“Do you know what you did? You almost put me in a miserable situation. Didn’t I tell you that I don’t care if you get pregnant with someone else, just not with me?”
“I’m sorry, hubby. I really forgot.”
“Sometimes, adapt your stupidity to the situation. Choose where you can be a fool.” I stood up to leave her when she suddenly hugged me from behind.
“Sorry, really sorry. Promise it won’t happen again.” She wailed so hard that I stumbled. I closed my eyes first then faced her and held her. “Just hurt me, but don’t be mad at me, hubby.”
What she said reminded me of when I am the one who begs her for forgiveness. When I accidentally abused her. The fear of losing her. And I know we had the same situation too right now. It’s the other way around because she’s the one apologizing to me now.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry for insulting you. I was just really scared when I found out you were delayed. I don’t want to lose you, wife.” Then I hugged her tightly. “I don’t want to lose you, Lauren. Even if it’s just a friend, I can’t bear to lose you and I’ll be the reason.
“She hugged me and then continued to cry. I caressed her back and made her calm.
“Sorry, hubby, I don’t even understand what you’re fighting for, but I still want to apologize to you. I swear it won’t happen again.”
“I only have you, Lauren. So I don’t know what to do when I lose a friend like you.”
“I’m sorry again, hubby.” I lifted her face and kissed her on the lips then smiled.
“Accepted,”
“Are we ok now, hubby?”
“Yup, but no sex for one month.”
“Hubby.” She complains angrily.
“Punishment.”
“Hubby.”
“Come on let’s eat.
“She grumbled as she followed me while I held her hand. I can’t stand her either, well at least now she knows that I am serious about what I said—-no kids. PERIOD.
IT SEEM LIKE yesterday Lileth was with us. That she and Dave are happily married. But now her coffin is slowly swallowing the ground where her body is placed in.
I just sighed when the rain started to hit the ground. I was holding Lauren’s waist who had been crying. For a certain period of time, they also became close to each other. It’s not that close but they talk especially when we’re at the mansion.
Dave did not talk and just silently cried. Tears flowed but stunned. Since Lileth died we can no longer talk to him. I don’t know what’s running on his mind. But one thing is for sure. He’s in grief and feels guilty.
I still can’t believe that she’s gone. Is she really there? Is she really dead? Maybe not? I look at Dylan who is just standing quietly on the side and smoking.
Can he accept? Is it ok with him? Has he moved on? From time to time he looked at the place where Lileth’s body was kept. Then he will look at his cell phone. I just shook my head. Seeing how calm Dylan is makes me think if he is really ok. Now that he can no longer see Lileth’s face, will he be able to handle it? Knowing how much he loves her. He really loves her to the point that he can sacrifice everything he had. So it’s hard to believe that he’s ok if he can’t see sister Lileth anymore. That’s right. He still has all the chances to be with her but he doesn’t do anything. I mean—never mind
Lileth’s coffin was completely covered. Mom talks to Dave and daddy as well. I don’t know if Dave understood what they were saying. Mom doesn’t want to leave. But Dylan presented that he would take care of it. Mom needs to get rest too so she went with daddy.
Next, we also said goodbye. Daze said she will stay with Dave totally and Dylan was also there.
“I hope Dave can move on, too. For sure he’s too affected because of what happened. ‘Didn’t you say he loves Lileth very much? They are the first love.”
“Hmph.” My only answer.
“I still can’t believe that she’s gone.”
“Me, too.”
“Hubby?”
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“I would rather we just separate than have what happened to them happen to us.” I step the break. Luckily we were going slow so the stop was not that much pressure. I looked at her and then stared.
“What do you mean?”
“I know we don’t love each other but whether we admit it or not we have a special place in each other’s hearts. I am comfortable with you, and I know you too in me. If we break up we can still keep in touch. We can talk, and we are free to cry on each other’s shoulders. So that’s ok with me. If one of us is lost, we will be separated. It’s like the pain when the person next to you suddenly disappears. Suddenly you will lose someone to lean on.”
I can’t take my eyes off of her. He just gave me more reason to——–
“Hubby. We will remain friends forever, right?”
“Yeah.” She smiled at me and held my hand. What almost happened to her will not happen to you. No Lauren, I won’t be the reason for that. So sorry if I can’t give you one of the things you want. Because I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want you to experience that.