Evershining Stars, Everlasting Love



"Why do I think you are weird? Did you do something wrong? Are you afraid I'll blame you?" Vince said. The breath when he spoke tickled my earlobe. I shook my head. I broke away from Vince's hands to be free from his arms.

I turned and said with a serious face, "Vince, let's not see each other again."

After hearing what I said, Vince's facial expressions changed quickly and completely. His deep pupils constricted. He looked at me coldly and said harshly, "Say it again."

I knew what I said have affected his mood. The reason why he asked me to repeat it was that he wanted me to take it back.

But how could I take it back? I could tell Vince that my brother owes to loan sharks and I could also accept his money to stay with him. But what would be the final result? Qiang Mo would regard Vince as an ATM and Qi Ouyang would retaliate crazily. She's gonna do more to me and my family. Mo family is just a small household and is unable to contest with Ouyang family.

How could Vince protect me? Once or twice?

Just as the saying goes, better an open enemy than a false friend. I couldn't stake everything on my family. It doesn't matter if my marriage or relationship collapsed. I could handle it.

I admit that my love is selfish, because I had never measured Vince's love for me. He never said he loved me and I just assumed that we were just in need of sex and spiritual sustenance.

Now that the most basic needs were being envied, it's time to end.

I lowered my head and swallowed slobber, saying self-mockingly and grief-stricken, "I'm tired and I don't want to play with you."

"Play?" Vince said. He was infuriated by the word. He came forward to pinch my chin and lift it hard.

I was forced to raise my head painfully and make eye contact with him. I saw the burning anger in his eyes. I've never seen him so angry.

"I've never been screwed by a woman. You are the first one." Vince looked at me and said harshly.

I looked at him stubbornly and said, "A bad woman like me, a former model and a divorced woman, naturally likes to play with men, don't you know?"

"You lied to me about your pregnancy?" Vince said. His cold, aloof and proud eyes shot at me like an arrow.

"Yes, everything I've told you is false. Do you know why I divorced Jerry? That's because I lied a lot. He divorced me because he couldn't stand me. I am so mean and scary...." I said. Before I could finish what I wanted to say, Vince kissed me.

He sucked vindictively, thrusting my teeth roughly open. His kiss was like a whirlpool and I couldn't resist it until my lip stung. He bit my lip and the blood flowed into my mouth and melted. The smell of blood filled my mouth.

He moved his lips away from me and pushed me. He stared at me coldly for a few seconds and laughed scornfully, saying, "Nance, you are too cruel."

I gently touched the cut on the corner of my mouth. Tears were rolling in my eyes but I managed to hold them back. "Vince, I don't know you are a man who takes a matter to heart and can't let things go. There are plenty of good women in the world and there are plenty of women who want to have sex with you. Why do you want a bad woman like me?"

"How bad you are?" Vince questioned me with cold eyes.

"I can have sex with another man right now. Am I bad enough?" I gritted my teeth and said such vile things. My heart ached. I wanted to slap myself. Why I hurt Vince like that?

I knew the answer myself. He is too good to be a match for someone in my position. Qi Ouyang's terrible eyes are full of all kinds of conspiracy and I knew I'm no match for her.

In fact, I must always make way for money. My parents are old and Qiang Mo should make a good living with my sister-in-law. I really didn't want to upset them because of my relationship.

What does it matter if I sacrifice my own happiness? I smiled wryly. I watched Vince rush at me like a wild beast, his hand tight around my neck. I couldn't breathe and my face turned red. I felt a little blurry in my vision and I might be about to be strangled.

Just when I thought I might be strangled by Vince, my breath suddenly went out. As I breathed hard, Vince's face slowly became clear in my vision. He held me tight and called my name frantically.

I looked at him through tears and said, "Off you go! Get out of here. I don't want to see you." I felt like I was going to die as I said words against my will. I'd rather I'd just been strangled by Vince than suffer so much.

Vince stood up and dropped the key I had once given him on the floor expressionlessly. Then he went out with the suitcase in his hand. The moment the door slammed shut, I burst into tears.

I propped myself up and ran to the window. I peeped down through the curtain and saw him standing in the neighbourhood. When he looked back at my window, I hid quickly.

When I looked down again, he had disappeared.

I didn't want to end up with him like that, but I took Qi Ouyang's money. I knew I'm selfish. I could never get into the upper crest of the rich.

In order not to go to Vince, I moved the next day. The landlord is nice and gave me a refund of the rent for six months. I asked Qiang Mo to move the furniture back to his house. Qiang Mo asked what I would do and I replied I would go one step and look forward.

I left Fu city and went to the city where one of my classmates is. She is my best friend in college.

She got married but is not very happy. She is a typical housewife. She is 26 and a mother of two. She accompanied me to find a new house. This time I am smart and didn't pay a year's rent. I paid for three months and I would rent it longed if it fits me.

Ying Liao helped me with the cleaning. "Nance, what are you going to do next?" She asked.

“I'll give birth to the baby first and then make plans." I said obliviously. But Ying Liao was shocked by my words. She put down her broom and came over, saying, “Are you pregnant?”

I nodded with a smile. I looked at my flat stomach and said, "Can you tell that I'm pregnant?"

“Is it Jerry's?" Ying Liao asked concernedly. She attended the wedding ceremony of me and Jerry, so she acquiesced that the baby in my tummy is Jerry's.

I shook my head and said "No".

When I denied it, Ying Liao was shocked.

"Then whose baby it is? Nance, having and raising a baby is not as easy as you think. Do you know that I am weighed down like a brute by the burden of my family? I have no money, so I can only depend on my husband. I don't even know when this life is going to end." Ying Liao said sincerely and earnestly.

"Ying Liao, what's the matter with you?" I said. I saw Ying Liao's eyes were red and she seemed to have some secrets she didn't want to reveal. "My biggest regret in life is getting married too early. How far gone are you? If it's small, abort it." Ying Liao said with a wry smile.

It's hard for me to imagine Ying Liao saying such a thing to me and I didn't know why she said that. Was it the hard times that oppressed a good woman in this way?

"I'm not going to abort this baby. I love the father of the baby. I want to have the baby." I looked at Ying Liao and said seriously.

"Do as you like." Ying Liao said. She didn't want to say more and picked up the broom to sweep the floor.

I knew Ying Liao was for my sake. But I thought that if I didn't have children at this age, I would miss out on the golden opportunity. I might not to have children in the future even if I want.

After Ying Liao cleaned up the house, she was going to go home. Suddenly, she seemed to think of something and said to me, "Nance, do you still remember the fat guy in our class?"

I looked at her and shook my head confusedly, saying, “Which fat guy?"

"It's Zhiyu Yin, the stinking rich fat guy who has a rich family and earned his own success after graduation." Ying Liao said exaggeratively. But after she said that, I remembered a little.

"Why do you suddenly speak of him?” I looked at Ying Liao confusedly and asked.

"You became a model after graduation and he pursued you more than once. I remembered when you got married, he was so drunk that we asked four people to carry him away." Ying Liao said. If Ying Liao hadn't told me, I probably wouldn't have known about it. The fat guy seemed to have pursued me, but I'm so different in physique from him.

We are classmates and we would have fallen in love in school if we liked each other at that time. How could we wait until now?

"How's the fat guy doing now?" I just asked casually. I didn't care if Zhiyu is rich or poor. The reason why I refused him is not that he is fat, but he is too fat and affects the appearance of the city.

"If you see him, you can't recognize him. Now he is a real handsome man. I tell you, I'm thrilled to see him. Now he is rich, handsome and single. He is a perfect lover. I saw him in the lobby of the hotel the day before yesterday." Ying Liao said. Ying Liao's exaggeration made me laugh.

Although every fat guy is a potential stock, there's no need to be so exaggerated.

"Well, if Zhiyu really becomes so good, you can tell him when you see him that I want to see what he looks like now. Go home to look after your two sons. I can do the rest myself." I pushed Ying Liao out of the door and said.

Ying Liao looked at me with raising eyebrows and said tentatively, "Do you really want to see Zhiyu?"Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.

After seeing she still didn't want to leave, I said perfunctorily, "Yes, I want to see how a fat guy becomes a handsome man. Maybe he and I still have a chance. I'm divorced and he's single. That's a good opportunity for me, right?"

"Yes, I'll go home first." Ying Liao rolled her eyes and answered earnestly.

"Go home now, or I'll kick you out." I said. After watching Ying Liao leave, I slammed the door.

After she left, the house became quiet. I went into the bedroom lonely and closed the door. Then I picked up my phone. When I am alone, I always think of Vince.

Was it too cruel what I said to him that night?

Perhaps before long, he and Qi Ouyang would be engaged or even married. Then he would forget that there is a woman named Nance in the world. I smiled wryly and felt I am self-inflicted.