Evershining Stars, Everlasting Love



I tucked my hand out of fatty's slowly.

"Fatty..."

But he stopped me before I got to continue:"I'm not fat anymore, Nance. I've become what you like: a man of great accomplishment! Why are you still ignoring it?"

It confused me, for I have never asked him to change anything for me. It was true that he's no longer the chubby bloke he was, but that still didn't mean anything to me. I have Vince's child in my body already, I'm all Vince's.

I left him because I didn't want Qiang to use him to cover his debt, nor did I want my families to be harassed by Qi. But I've never thought about being together with any man other than Vince, not even my classmate who used to pursue me back in school.

"Zhiyu, I'm pregnant." I said and looked at him coldly and noticed a slight disbelief and shock blinked in his eyes, but soon disappeared.

"You are turning me down because of this?" Said Zhiyu, frowned and looked at me sternly.

"I don't love you, don't you understand? Otherwise I would've been together with you with or without the changes you went through. We were classmates and, I don't want things between us to be embarrassing. I'm happy for what you had become and achieved, but we're just classmate, that's it." I replied, left him no chance of saying anything else and got off the car.

I just wanted to be left along and spent some time to go through these days after leaving Vince, but Zhiyu just showed up out of nowhere.

I didn't want to interfere with Ying's life either, though her child got his hand burnt in my place. The trouble in my life seemed to be endless.

Zhiyu didn't visit me in the next few days since I made my point clear before, but we ran into each other a few times in the hospital.

And the way he looked at me made me a bit nervous.

On the day Ying's son recovered and left the hospital, he was there to take them home, and took me home as well. He stopped me when I got off the car and said:"I'm heading back to Fu City tomorrow, will you go with me?"

I hesitated and stayed there for a few seconds, then said:"Yes."

Cause he might think that I'm just trying to run away from him if I turn him down again.

I didn't really want to go if it weren't for mom calling me the other day that dad's situation got worse.

Maybe it was also because a slight hope of that man I held.

The next day Zhiyu picked me up at my apartment. He kept talking about the years happened on him in these years and put on some music, but I was just not in the mood.

I kept looking outside the window and slowly fell asleep.

We were in a service area by the highway when I woke up. He put the jacket of his suit on me and was smoking. He turned around, and dropped the cigarette on the ground hurriedly and then got back to me.

I loosened my seat belt and handed him the jacket. It was the end of fall, his face seemed pale from the cold.

"Keep it,"He said, warmed up his hands by breathing out on them, "Do I smell bad?"

"No."

"I've been driving for quite a while and got a bit tired, we'll be on our way soon." He said, eyes fixed on me all the time. His emotion seemed to have synced with mine, and it looked like that he was trying his best to make me happy.

"Fatty, have you had any girlfriends these years?" I asked, and he was surprised.

“Well, uh, there were girls chasing me, but no." He stuttered out his answer as put his hand on his head.

"I've never slept with Jerry in those years. He said that I must have been, well, used, since I'm a model. And there seemed to be a bet he had with someone that he won't touch me until five years after our marriage." I said as I smiled out of bitterness, for the three years of me being controlled like a pet. But I talked to Zhiyu about this all out of a sudden, maybe because of our relationship of old classmates.

I took a looked at him. He was in a rumination, looked frozen.

"What?" I said and nudged him gently.

"How did you get pregnant then?" He said as he shook his head.

"We divorced, I do whatever I want after it." I smiled and said.

"You married another man? Or is it the boyfriend you mentioned?" He suddenly got emotional and grabbed me by my shoulder, shook me back and forth. It kinda made me dizzy, I looked at him strangely as I place my finger on my temple.

"Fatty!" I shouted, and he got his hands off me.

"So...sorry." He seemed lost, after a while he spoke again, sounding angry:"That's...a pity, Nance, but you're always my Aphrodite, whatever happens."

"Aphrodite?" I was flattered, "Thank you, fatty. But have you ever seen a Aphrodite leading a wretched life like me?"

"You're my Aphrodite of grace and confidence, always." He said, eyes blazing with enthusiasm.

That brought a strange feeling in my heart.

We spent the rest of the journey in silence.

We went straight to my parents' place after we arrived at Fu City. Mom started complaining the moment I stepped in the door, but didn't go hard on me seeing Zhiyu was with me. Probably Qiang had told her about my divorce.

She grabbed me to the kitchen and said:"Nance, no one would marry a woman who used to divorce!"

“Just cut it, mom, dad's situation may get worse because of you rambling these things all day." I said impatiently, being so talkative was the only thing I don't like about her.

"Who's that young guy? Another chaser of yours?" She asked curiously.

"My classmate, there's nothing going on between us!" I warned him sternly lest she started spreading around any stories and made Zhiyu feel like he still got a chance.

She walked near Zhiyu quickly and started cottoning up to him. I walked out of kitchen with a bowl of noodle in my hands and was met with her talking to Zhiyu as she grabbed him by his hand:"Nance never mean what she says, she like it when she says she doesn't."

"Qin Yue!" I called her by her name angrily and dropped the bowl on the table,"Stop it!"

"Why?" She was still playing innocent,"We're just catching up with each other."

"I bet you've got no appetite after driving for so long, you'd better get back home now. Thank you for taking me back here." Then I took him out of the door.

He grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest, said to me happily:"Your mom is lovely. She said she pretty like me!"

"Sure she is, she's been lonely since my dad couldn't even get out of bed. You could try chasing her after my dad's gone."

He was pissed and said to me, frowned: "Nance, why do you treat my love to you like this?"

"I don't want to be hard on you, fatty." I stared back into his eyes,"I love the man, the father of the baby in me! I don't care whether he still loves me or not!"

"I see," He let go of my hand and forced out a smile of bitterness,"You're still as ruthless as you were."

That confused me again. I explained:"Fatty, if I used to be mean to you, I apologize. Thank you for taking me back home."

That's what I do to people that I'm not interested in, to cut it quick and clear.

I walked back in after he's gone and was met with mom scolding me of divorcing without having asked them for suggestions.

The dizziness from the long drive made so I just walked into my room, where had been packed with quite many stuffs.

I lied down and closed my eyes. Me head aches and felt distress in my chest, and my abdomen hurts like menstrual cramp.

Flashbacks of my life started running through my mind. I got up and felt a sudden nausea and I was sweating all around. I walked into the bathroom, trying to vomit out something but none came since I didn't really eat anything.

I took some time answering the call of nature, after which the pain at my abdomen got sharper and I found bloodstain on my underwear.Exclusive content © by Nô(v)el/Dr/ama.Org.

I was scared. I got back to my room and got changed, checked the time.

Mom and dad had fallen asleep. I just walked out of the house and got a taxi to the hospital.

It was 9pm. A doctor ran a B-mode ultrasonography on me, of which the result said "possible embryo arrest."

I asked the doctor what it meant but he wrote "missed abortion" after asking me what was the last time I had my period.

"What does it mean?" I asked.

"The child should have developed preliminary heartbeat and embryo, but neither of it was found. The embryo may have stopped growing." Said the doctor, but I didn't really understand.

"Is there a chance to fix it?" I said worriedly. I didn't want to lose the kid, it was the only thing Vince left for me.

"That would not be necessary, Miss Mo. It's better for you and your husband to prepare for another pregnancy next time." Said the doctor, then he just finished writhing the diagnosis.

My tears lost control again.

I've never been happy for even just a day after conceiving this child, that was probably wild he, or she, chose to left me.

"You'll need to spend some days living in hospital, and now you can go for check-in." Said the doctor as he handed me the record.

I took the record and stumbled out of the room. The receptionist told me that they've arranged a bed for me, there would be follow-up caring after the abortion operation.

I nodded and placed my hand on me flat abdomen and let the tears drop, there was a woman that had finished her abortion this morning on the bed next to me, his husband was feeding her food.

I took the elevator down to the first floor and to the parking lot, where the coldness mad e me drew the jacket tighter. I looked up and saw the full moon hanging in the night sky, probably it was around the middle of a lunar month again.

But I found Vince standing right in front of me when I took my sight off the moon.

It shocked me for a while. Soon I turned around and try to run away from his sight.