Letting My Brother's Best Friend Take My V-Card (Jessie and Luke)

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I was hot.

Like really hot.

My eyes snapped open, and I threw off the blanket that covering me but yanked it back up when I realized I wa underneath.

"Okay. The last night happened... I mumbled to myself, testing my body to see if I felt any different.

Everything still felt... the same, but there was a definite ache between my thighs. I shut my eyes, and a flashback of Luke's face as he pushed inside me for the first time filled my mind. Last night, it happened.

Luke happened.

We happened.

Palming my face, I tried to get rid of the sleepiness. It was still early; the sky was starting to turn orange, but Leould still see some stars. I looked around the pool house. I was alone. Luke had left. "Of course, he left. What did I expect? A cuddle. session?" I muttered, pullin inspired dress.

My heart sank, a heavy weight settling in my chest. I could still

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feel him. His touch burned into my skin. I pulled the blanket tighter around me, trying to convince myself that this was fine. I was fine. I didn't want him to stay either and face him. I know it was

my first time, and he probably had better... experiences, so this was good. I didn't need to try and apologize if it was lousy sex, and I could now go on with my life knowing this box was ticked off.

And Luke really ticked it off.

i knew a little of what to expect because, well, Sam told us. I refused to listen to Laura tell me how her first time with my brother went because there are things you just can't un-hear, and I had a knack for conjuring up images-those I did not need in my brain forever.

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But Sam had said hers lasted a few minutes; it was painful, then good, and then it was over. She didn't climax; that only came later, but last night, Luke made sure, he made sure that I would experience it, and it was definitely not two minutes- more like two hours of agonizingly slow sex.

I thought there could have been something more there. Even though I didn't know much about... you know, sex. I knew there was a whole lot of emotion last night. Luke was gentle when he needed to be, tender in ways that made me feel cherished and special. And now, h The silence of the pool house was deafening. My thoughts raced, each one more painful than the last. Had it meant nothing to him? Was I just a momentary distraction?

I forced myself to stand, wrapping the blanket around me like a shield. I moved slowly, new aches coming to light. I was tender where Luke held onto my hips, but I clearly remember telling

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him to go harder, so that might be on me.

I found my t-shirt and underwear scattered around the pool house and dressed quietly, trying not to think about Luke leaving. Trying to be happy because it was over. "I should be happy,"

Once dressed, I took a deep breath and walked outside. The morning air was cool against my skin, a stark contrast to the warmth inside the poolhouse. The inferno of us was writhing together last night.

I looked over at his house. It was very quiet, so I forced myself to look away. He wouldn't be there. He didn't care. This was settling a debt, making good on a promise.

I wandered back to the house, my mind a jumbled mess of confusion and hurt. As I slipped inside quietly, careful not to wake Josh, I couldn't help but wonder if I had made a mistake. Maybe I had read too much into what had happened between us. Maybe Luke had just be But the hurt remained no matter how much I tried to rationalize it. I had given him a part of me that I couldn't get back, and now I was left alone to pick up the pieces.

I found myself back in my room, closing the door softly behind me. I sank onto my bed, wrapping my arms around myself as if that could somehow ward off the ache in my chest. Tears pricked at the corners of my eyes, and I let them fall silently.

I didn't want to feel like this. But couldn't help it. Last night had meant something to me; I don't know what, but it wasn't the wham bam that Sam had sold it as, and I definitely didn't hook up with a guy that I'm going to date now. Sam and Laur werenoveldrama

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I made a mistake.

It shouldn't have been Luke. It should have been someone forgettable. Someone I felt nothing for...

Curling up on my bed, I tried to clear my head. But all I could think about was him-his touch, his kiss, the way he made me feel, and I was sure for a second there, I saw it in his eyes. He felt something-

the way he looked at me, there was somethi there, but I must have been in a sez daze because he woUIL have left if he had.