The Wolf Who Saved Me

When Adriana left, I decided to go out of the house. I was feeling a pang of pain in my chest remembering the people I lost, I needed some air. I walked to the forest, and when I went inside, I saw a big rock. I smiled and sat there.

“Killian,” I whispered.

Back in our pack territory, we used to talk on the rocky part, just a few meters outside our house. We are close in that we share secrets and gossips. My brother is said to be one of the weakest male wolves in our pack. He did not have many friends; that’s why he was close to me.

Our life has constantly been ridiculed because we are deemed different from others. Male wolves must be strong and not easily scared, but my brother was the opposite. The day we went running, and he was fighting the other pack members, I was proud. It was the first time Killian had proved to the others that he was not a loser. He can be strong, too.

I got teary-eyed remembering my loving brother risking his life for me.

“I am so proud of you, Killian! You proved them wrong. I hope I could still see you,” I whispered.

I was sobbing when I heard footsteps walking towards me. I turned to find Reule standing looking at me with sharp eyes.

“Why are you here? Who made you cry?” Reule asked in a serious tone.

“You startled me. I went out because I needed some air. No one made me cry. I just remembered something that saddens me,” I replied.

Reule’s eyes grew darker. I thought he would shift out of anger; then, it returned to its original color after a few seconds.

“I thought someone hurt you, but it turns out you are just having some dramatic moments. Who is it you remembered?”

“Why do you think it’s a person?”

“It’s always a person that can make someone cry. So, who is it? Was it your ex? That Caleb guy?”

“I did not expect that you like to eavesdrop on a conversation.”

“Like as if you were not doing that to me.”

The memory of his conversation with other women while they were about to have sex flashes, and I turned a little red out of embarrassment.

“What!? Since when did I do that to you?”

“I don’t know, but you looked guilty. Your face turned red.”

“It’s because I cried, not because of your accusations.”

“Whatever! Stop thinking of that wolf. He is already buried six feet on the ground.”

“I wasn’t even thinking of him.. well, not only him.”

“So, there are other dead boyfriends that you missed?”

“I never had any other relationship other than with Caleb.”

“Good! Because that would be your last relationship aside from..”

“Aside from who?”

“Anyways, stop thinking of the dead. Don’t it freak you out?”

“No! If it’s my family who died because of me. I would love to keep remembering them every day. I would even sell my soul just to see them for one last time.”

I storm out of the forest and run towards the house. How could he be so insensitive to the pain I feel for losing the people I love because of how I am. I did not choose to be like this, and I sure hate myself for it.

Reule tried to stop me, but I did not listen. I just left him there so he would not see the tears falling from my eyes. I couldn’t let him know that I am hurting.

I did not have the strength to join the evening run or the party after that. I told Nana Lolita that I was not feeling well and would just lay down on the bed. She was worried, but I told her that I would be fine. I just need some rest.

I fell asleep but awakened from a call. It’s Reule.

“Hello,” I answered in a raspy voice.

“God, you sound awful! Are you okay? Nana Lolita said you were not feeling well?” Reule replied.

“Ah, yes. I just need to lie down and rest.”

“I did not expect that being overly dramatic can make you sick.”

“Oh, shut up, Reule! You don’t know what I am feeling. So, if you are just calling me to criticize what I feel, go fuck yourself! You don’t know what it’s like to lose a family because of me, because of an abnormal werewolf like me. And I certainly don’t need your validation of what I should be feeling. You are not a God. You are just a fucking werewolf like me!”

I ended the call. I was burning with anger, but I regretted it when I finally realized that it was wrong to just throw words out of anger.

“Oh, my god! I just cursed the most fearful Alpha. What am I going to do now?”

I covered my face with my hands. Surely, Reule would drag me out of the house or even to Conri. I have to prepare myself. It’s the consequence of not being able to control my mouth.

Suddenly, I heard a knock on the door that made my heart beat fast.

“Shit! Here he comes to beat me,” I thought.

I sighed, took a deep breath, and walked towards the door. I stopped when I was in front of it; I could not dare to open it. My hands were shaking out of fear but the knocking grew louder and angry.

“Pull yourself together, Wren! Do not let him see the fear in you,” the voice inside me said.

I slowly opened the door. I closed my eyes, preparing myself for any surprise punch or kick.

“Why are your eyes closed?” Reule asked with eyes widened.

“Nothing, there was something that went inside it. But it’s gone now.” I replied while slightly rubbing my eyes so that he will not see how stupid I was.

“Okay. You looked like you were expecting a kiss.”

“What!? Do you think I was expecting a kiss from you? Are you insane?”

“Hmm.. why not? If it will stop you from cursing and yelling at the leader of this pack that you are in right now; I would be happy to do that. Do you want some?”

“Eww.. Why are you here?”

“You did not join the evening run and the party. I thought you must be hungry. I brought you some food. You need to eat if you are feeling well. You need to have some energy.”

Reule handed me the tray of food. I shyly took it and said,” Thanks!”

“Ah.. By the way Wren, I might not have experienced the same way how you lost your family, but I somehow understood the pain you are going through. I am also alone, and I also lost my family in a tragic death. But I am sorry, I just realized that I was also insensitive. You have never got a chance to grieve. You have to grieve; take it out so it would lessen the pain.”Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

I stood there in surprise while Reule turned and left. I did not expect him to be this way. I have never seen him so concerned and apologetic. It feels like it was not Reule.