Uncontrollable Tempration

-The next day-

“Wake up Sophia. You don’t want to be late for work.” Phoebe tapped me.All content © N/.ôvel/Dr/ama.Org.

“I don’t want to go, leave me alone!” I groaned. She was disturbing the wonderful sleep I was having right now.

“Sophia! Mr Wilson may come today.”

My head shot up and I was instantly awake. She laughed at my reaction the moment I heard her say his name.

“Are you serious, he’s coming?” I asked eagerly.

“I don’t know, I just said that to make you get up. And it worked.”

“Ugh! Screw you!” I got up since I had already woken up. We had spread sleeping bags all over the floor of my sitting room and slept there last night. It was very comfortable.

Lily came out of the bathroom and we all packed up the beds we created and tidied up the mess we had made last night.

“I’ll see you at later at the office.” I said to Phoebe. I hugged them both and they left.

Honestly speaking, I didn’t not want to go to the office today. Something was telling me that he was not going to come today. I could just stay at home all day and sleep. But that would be irresponsible.

But, what if he does come today? The uncertainty was killing me, I just had to go to the office and see for myself.

I got ready slowly, taking my time because I wasn’t sure of what the day would be like. For all I know, it could just be a waste.

I got there at 8:40am and I was thankful because he wasn’t even around. I didn’t even bother calling his phone because it was sure to go to voicemail. I made up my mind that I wasn’t going to cry so I just sat on my desk chair and I did the usual. This time I watched Silicon Valley, Phoebe recommended it to me last night and it was good. I admit.

I was there for hours until I got hungry. I didn’t want to have lunch alone like I had been doing for the past few days but Phoebe told me she would be out marketing again today so I had no other choice.

I was going to treat myself today because I really need it.

I took the elevator to the ground floor but on its way, it stopped on the 4th floor. The door opened and there stood… Sean?

“Sophia.” He was surprised to see me and I was too. I had completely forgotten about his existence and I felt bad.

Had he forgotten me too?

The thought of him forgetting me made me feel even worse.

“Sean! I… I- I don’t even know what to say.”

“Don’t say anything Sophia. How long has it been?”

“Weeks, for sure. I’m so sorry. I went on leave and I came back on Monday. I haven’t had the time to-”

“There’s no need to explain yourself Sophia.” He interrupted me. “Truthfully, I hadn’t thought about you since that night we were supposed to go to the Vineyard theatre together. I feel terrible.”

Ouch.

“It’s okay. I guess we were both busy.” I said.

“My work has been hectic lately, and it very likely to get worse.” He got into the elevator and pressed the button for the ground floor.

What work could he possibly have? Mr Wilson was not even around. Well, his work was different from mine. He’s not a personal assistant so he doesn’t require Mr Wilson’s presence at all times. Unlike me.

“So where are you heading?” He asked.

“I’m grabbing myself some lunch.”

“Same here, care to join?”

“Yes!” I said a little more desperate than I intended to.

“Okay.” He laughed but ignored my desperation. “I was planning to eat somewhere shabby but I guess not anymore. What did you have in mind?”

“Oh, um… I hadn’t actually decided yet. I was just stepping out first.” I said stupidly.

He looked at me interestingly.

“I mean, I was just gong to check the uh… the places downstairs.” I don’t know why I felt the need to explain anything to him.

“Sophia. Relax, I know a good place we could have lunch together.”

“Where?”

The elevator finally opened up.

“Follow me. We’re walking.” He said.

“I hope it’s not too far.” I laughed nervously because I had 4 inch heels on. They weren’t too high but I just didn’t want to walk around too much with them.

“Amsterdam Burger Company. It’s not far at all.”

“Oh… That place. I’ve had a few burgers there. They’re good.”

The walk took us about 5 minutes and we got a nice table, just by the window.

“I usually get the Aussie Burger. I’ll stick to that today also, just to be on the safe side.” I said.

“Me too, that’s what I get.” He smiled at me. “But today, I’m getting a turkey burger. I want to try something new this time. You should too.”

“No thanks. Aussie Burger for me, I don’t like turkey.”

A waiter came and we placed our orders. The food came some moments later.

Sean and I were just talking about general stuff until he brought up a topic I really didn’t want to discuss with him, or any body as a matter of fact.

“By the way, how is Adam? I haven’t seen him in a while but I know he’s around. I mean, now you’re here so he should be here too right?”

“What do you mean?” I sounded offended but I really wasn’t. I was annoyed that we were talking about him.

“You’re his PA, you should know where he is.” Sean said.

“Well I don’t.” I shrugged my shoulders and took a huge bite out of my burger because I didn’t want to talk about him anymore.

“That’s strange. At least we communicate through emails.” He took a bite out of his burger too.

I froze.

What did he just say?

“Sean… Did you say Mr Wilson sends you emails?” I managed to get out. My mouth was still stuffed.

“Mmmhmm. He sent one this morning. He may not be coming to work but he’s on track with what’s happening in our department.” He said and took another bite.

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. He doesn’t send me any emails. Is he really avoiding me?

“Is it just you he sends emails to?” I tried to keep my voice calm.

“Of course not. All the head of departments get constant emails from him, and other staff too.”

I swear I heard my heart break. It was like the sound of glass shattering against the wall.

“Excuse me.” I stood up abruptly and found my way to the ladies.

I couldn’t help the tears that fell from my eyes. I felt so stupid for crying but I was hurt. I was hurt because he didn’t send me any emails. I was hurt because he didn’t want to talk to me. I was hurt because he didn’t even want to see me! Why else would he not come to work? It’s obviously because he’s can’t stand me.

He should just fire me!

I don’t want to be an obstacle between him and his work. He clearly doesn’t want me in his life anymore, I feel absolutely irrelevant to him.

Someone joined me in the restroom and I quickly adjusted. I washed my face and wiped it clean. My eyes were a bit red and if you looked closely, you could tell that I was just crying.

I really hope Sean wouldn’t notice.