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I am starting to wake up I don’t know where I am my vision is blurry I blink a couple of times trying to get it to clear wondering what has Jake done I think to myself. It’s quiet I’m scared not knowing what has happened to me, I’m shocked. My vision is starting to clear recognize this place, then I realize I’m in Matt’s apartment. What hell has happened, how the hell did I get here. I sit up looking around I’m in his bed I get up to walk out to the living room. I see Matt sitting on the couch as he rushes over to me.

“What the hell happened how did I get here.”

“It was Jake I saw you with him, so I followed you just to make sure you were OK I wasn’t sure if he was going to hurt you.”

“All I remember is getting into Jake’s car I looked at him and then all of a sudden, everything just went black.” I began to rub my head realizing ouch it hurts not really sure why.

“He hit you over the head once you got into his car when I saw it, I stopped him. I called the police and took you into my apartment I am not sure if they got him or not I was too concerned about you.”

“Why are you acting like you care about me, all of a sudden, you haven’t talking to me in days? When I try to reach out to you, just ignored him. It hurt my feelings you bringing different women to you apartment you acted like I was disposable.”

“I know you might not believe this because of my actions I care about you Jessica. I pushed you away because you deserve more than what I can give you. I am not the relationship type of person I didn’t want you to feel for me.”

“Matt, you told me that from the beginning I already knew that. I distant myself from feeling for you. Even though I will admit it’s hard not to feel something for you, but I had it under control.”

“I couldn’t face you after the detectives talk to you, I was afraid of being judged you what you would think of me.”

“I really wish you would just talk to me about all of this instead of just blocking me out it wasn’t fair.”

“I am sorry that I blocked you out it wasn’t my intent I just wanted not to feel what I feel for you, I wanted it to disappear.

Did he just say that he had feelings for me, that’s what it sounded like? I really want to feel for him, I enjoy him more than anybody I have ever been around. He doesn’t want a relationship he’s trying to block all his feelings, and he’s having trouble. That’s why he stopped talking to me altogether, thinking he would just stop feeling. I am not sure what to say to him now that I know he actually cares.

“What was Jake going to do with me, do you know?”

“I am not sure I just know that have been looking for him.”

“Oh my god I had my first day at my new job and I missed my first day damn it I am going to get fired before I even get to start. Do you have my phone, so I can call them?”

“They already called I told them what happened, and they asked me to tell you to call when you’re able to I’m sorry. I also tried calling your mother, but she did not answer the phone.”

“Oh shit what is going to be there in impression of me now. There going to think I’m just all kinds of drama damn it.”

“It will be OK Jessica what happened is not your fault there not going to judge for it, you have nothing to worry about.”

“I have to call them do you have my phone, so I can call them.”

He hands me my phone I look for their number in my phone and I dial it hoping that they don’t hold none of this against me not sure what is going to happen. The phone rings when someone answers I tell them who I am, and they say please hold we are going to put you through to our manager. I am nervous, not really sure what is going to happen, hoping that they don’t tell me they’re not interested in hiring me now.

“Hello Jessica this is Mark Johnston I am the manager of Blair street marketing we were told about your situation today I am greatly sorry that this had to happen to you. With that being said, Blair Street marketing company we thrive on our business and at this time we think it would be best if we do not hire you until all of this is resolved first I’m really sorry.”

“None of this was my fault I am the victim here, and you’re telling me that you don’t want to hire me because of what happened.”

“We don’t want any negative opinions looking at her company I am so sorry have a good day.”ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

Tears start to form in my eyes I do not allow them to fall to my cheeks I try to put on a strong face as Matt is looking at me. I can’t believe this I really thought today was going to be the perfect day boy I was wrong I should have never trusted Jake damn it I’m such a fool.

“Wait, you said that you called my mother, and she did not answer wait what phone did you use when you called her?”

“I used your phone I didn’t think that she would answer not knowing my phone number, so I used yours instead.”

“Oh god what if Jake went to my mother’s before he came to my apartment what if he did something to her?”

I start dialing my mother’s number letting it ring, but she’s not answering I hang up, and I redial her number I do it like 10 times, but there still is not answer. I look at Matt and I ask him “can you take me to my mother’s house please.”?

“Of course I can take you to your mother’s house, but Jessica are you well enough you don’t look too good.”

“I need to check on my mother and I need to check on her now with or without you, I don’t care.”

“Come on I’ll take you to her house now you will have to just give me directions on how to get.”

“I can do that thank you so much for taking me Matt I really appreciate it.”